so things do get better. ehehe... well from the last time i hit up this page i got in trouble and was told i wasn't allowed to go out and i had plans of still doing just that, but those plans all got dropped cause i went to Anaheim instead for the last week of my summer. by the time school started up again, i was still in my OC mode, which sucked considering that meant my motivation to actually do anything was down and all i could think about is goin' back. ahaha... which i did that first weekend of school starting. went back for the very same party that was the reason i was there  for a lit'l over a week that was postponed til then. ahaha.... it wasn't that bad, i actually spent most of it at the other house just watchin tv and killin time on my cousin's laptop. ehehe... then when my other cousin and his gf got there killed time laughin' at them and my brother goin' at it karaoke style while being yelled at by the oldiies for being too loud durin their BINGO game. ahahaha.... so i had one of my moments and the next thing we know we're takin' off to Speed Zone at 10 to go racing and have some fun ehehe.... ended up with my bro and cousin just racing while my cousin's gf and i just watched cause we didn't have liscenses for the one track we actually wanted to go on and didn't have a long line, by the time they were done, we just felt like playin mini golf and blowin' the rest of the credits we had on pointless mindless games ^_^ 
            School itself hasn't been what i expected though that goes for a lot of things. Yearbook hasn't turned out to be my favorite class, actually other than Avd. Alg. its the other class i just can't stand. Only thing i like about it is i get to take pictures which has been a whole different issue in itself, but nothing that bad. I got "married" and that says a lot about my judging skills cause that was a mistake, i divorced her just the other week and she makes it seem like it was all my fault, hopefully this doesn't say anything about how my future actual marriage will turn out(marriage in YB btw). ahahaha.... but yeahs. Adv.Alg. has just been a pain, i can't really get what my teacher is tryin' to teach me and just earlier this week she says to me that the material we'll be workin' on will be hard, when in all actuallity, i actually understand it. I think she should tell me its hard more often cause it seems thats the only time i already kno what i'm doin. ahaha... English is soo easy, but b/c of that i tend to not work on anything she assigns us, but luckily i got out with a D instead of the F i was expectin for the 1st quarter. ehehe...I'm so easily distracted in that class its not even funny anymore. Its like sophmore english all over again except for the grade part. ahahaha... anothing disappointing thing about that class is we have to read 500 pages every quarter, which i've done plus more, but i hate doin' book logs, it'd be earier if she just interviewed us one by one like my Sophmore english teacher used to who happens to be one of my current teacher's friend. add to that that fact that my teacher expects soo much more from me, which she said to me monday, she didn't realize my grade was soo low until i had to get it checked. oh wells.... Honors Econ. has been laughs, I hardly ever do shit in there as well and I managed to pull a B out of my ass. ahahaha... all i ever do is the tests which i have a D average, and turned in only just a few hmwk packets, not a single note has graced her turn in box. I'm startin to think she's giving me someone else's credits. ahaha... but whatever i shouldn't complain considering its one of my better grades. I'm in Video Production 1 and thats okay, its fun i have laughs, but other than that there's no real challenge i kno how to edit i kno how to upload and cut and create audio, i can tell what will make for a good camera angle and what to do when the camera starts actin' funny, so i talked wit the other Vid. teacher who only teaches 2 and he says its all good for me to get into Vid. 2 so, thats what im gonna do next smester. ^_^ which means i gots even more easier classes and more time to mess with my friends ^_^ plus i'll be the only girl in 2nd Period Vid. Prod. yup. ahaha... and the even better part, tho i will be switchin' to Bid. 2, i can stay in Vid. 1 as a tech so i gets to kick it in there wit friends 2 periods in a row next semester. my only other class is my T.A. class and that's for Beginning art, i like it in there, most of the time if the teacher doesn't need me i go off and just do stuff

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another summer gone by and 10 days till my Senior year starts up. This summer has been... one of the best for real! its been so long since i've had a really good summer and I love it. Only thing that would make it perfect is if we go to the bay, but i doubt that's gonna happen with school startin' up so soon, but maybe durin' labor day weekend.
recap of my summer, kicked off like last summer, by partyin' at JackJack's and havin' a good time. Again meetin' some pretty cool people and chillin' in her pool. Actually went to summer school, which wasn't so bad. Kinda wished i could've taken both semesters of eglish and history at the same time, but at the same time i don't. But it would've been useful. took english first, it was... boring, but some what entertaining. had some laughs with Niko and Stephanie. The work we did in 3 weeks, I could have finished in less than 1. which i actually did finish half the work that first week, which made less work for me, but more time sittin' in class doin' nothing. Same goes for history. Did the same repetative work in there, which sucked, but allowed me to do my work in advance, Mr. P told us it was only because he wanted us to do the easiest thing possible to get our credits, but it felt more like he just wanted to get paid and since he was wakin' up early in the mornings to coach the football team, why not get paid a lit'l extra to sit in an a/c room, drawin' up plays and makin' football plans.... So I passed both classes with A's. Ditched the day before last cause i felt like it and i already did all my work. Went to Angel's and kicked it at her place as a late celebration for my bday, Andy's goin' away to NY party and a lit'l something for Angel bfore she leaves for vacation. Kinda sucked tho cause we didn't really tell that many ppl, and most of the ppl we did tell couldn't make it. It was just me, jim, angel, dontel and andy kickin' it in the pool and aside from angel, we hella got sunburned! aahahaha.... Sometime durin' summer school we went to Magic Mt. too, did it for joey cause he came back to visit, Andy's 20th bday and told my mom an early bday celebration for my bday. aahahaha... It was Me, Angel, Miles, Ruben, Dan, Andy and Joey all together. Met up with Dontel, Kelly, Preston, Jim, Nick and Jacob over at the park, but didn't stick together for long, kinda split, except we took Dontel with us for most of the day. ehehe... The day was hella fun. Finally got to go on TATSU and X. Hella loved it!!Then to end off the day we all went on Dive Devil. that shit was FUN! shoot... ahahaa.... Joey went on twice while, me, andy, angel, miles and dontel waited for him, Ruben and Dan to get it over with. After Magic Mt. that following tuesday, we had a water fight at the park with the same group, plus Jon, Caitlin and Sammy. shit that day was laughs. Hella water balloons, water guns and freakin' sprinklers and then sneakin' off to Angels to go swimming. hells yeah! 
Went to Cerritos a couple saturdays ago. went to a picnic wit my parents, met some my dad's ol' childhood friends and got to meet and play with my cousin's bby Dillon/Dillan (not entirely sure how they're spellin it), he's sooo cute! frikkin' love the lit'l guy! Had some laughs wit my aunts and titas and titos. then we went to Norwalk after, saw my cousin and his fam whose been in Korea for the last couple of years where they've been stationed, met my other cousin for the first time i think, i'm not entirely sure. He was down from the bay area visitin' the fam while his bro was still in town before movin' to the mid west where they just got stationed for now. They're dogs are hella crazy! ahaha... and gay but they all cute doggiies! ahaha... my kuyas talked my parents into stayin' a lit'l longer than planned so the could take me out with them to the movies and just kick it since we hardly ever get to see eachother. We went and watched the Simpsons ahaha... that was laughs. After kickin' it at their place for a while, we went back to the other cousins place and kicked it over there. Talked wit da cousin for a while and watched her bby sleep. he's soo cute too! he was less than a week ol' and soo tiny. around 11 something we left and went back home, hella wanted to stay but my parents wouldn't let me, even tho my kuyas and tito was sayin' my kuya from da bay could give me a ride back on his way home, but they couldn't talk my parents into it. it was okay tho.  Since then just been kickin' it at home, watchin' movies and dramas, readin' some good books. Went to the Harry Potter launch party at Borders just to kick it late with some friends. ahahaha... that night was good. ahaha.... been goin to the movies and saturday and sunday volunteered to work the DCI Event held at BC with the LHS band. it was hella fun and laughs! Got to see some good music bein' played, fione ass musicians and even got to make some security gaurds carryin' guns and night sticks walk away from the gate and deny them entrance when they had every right to. ahahaha.... now that was laughs. ahahaha.... Late night dinner, should it be called breakfast when thats all we ordered?, at Denny's sunday night after a long day at the shows. Had hella laughs and not just got to kick it wit some of the DCI crew, but wit Kim, JackJack and Miles. Didn't get home till after midnight, which pissed my parent off plus other things, got introuble, got a lecture, but after all of it, every minute was worth it and i'd do it all over again if i could, with added camera time. ahahaha....
After the whole DCI experience hella wanted to join marchin' band and be a floater, but my mom wont agree to it cause of all the things already going on, and even though i want to do it, i gotta agree with her cause i got a lot coming up... also got my class schedule, got most of the classes i wanted, just need to move it around a lit'l cause havin' yb durin' 2nd period is an inconveniance for me so i gots to find a new teacher to be a TA for unless Ms. Brown doesn't have a 2nd or 4th period TA already, which she hopefully doesn't if she does, then the first day of school ima be goin' around askin' teachers if they need a TA, my last resort teacher is Mr. Koulos, and I don't want that. so ... hopefully i can find someone. hmm... i wonder if Mrs. Finzel needs a TA for 4th? hmmm....
well thats it for now, even tho i did get introuble and supposedly not out, i'm being allowed out again, goin' to the mall tomorrow, plus runnin' errands with Angie and Des, then party at JackJack's again next friday and Panda Palace next Sat or Sun. before school starts up again.... yup, this summer has been good. ^_^

Spring Break...

*sigh* Spring break is almost over. Its Thursday and I haven't done anything this whole time. And I started Spring break 2.5 days earlier! No I did not ditch or anything like that, though people like to assume I did, no I've just been sick. And it was all because of the Church Camp thingiie. ahaha...

But yeahs. So all I've been doing is being a lazy butt, just watching moviies, Korean Comedy/drama and Taiwanese shows. Yeah amazing huh. eheh....

finish later gtg

Thinkin'.....

     I've been doing a lot of thinkin'  lately. Just lookin' back at all the events and changes thats been goin' on since Jnr. year started. I always imagined Jnr. year so much differently. Everyone would still be hanging all together, even though some left for other schools and all that. But I never would have guessed that the ol' group would just split up, in a way. I knew everyone had their differences and their tolerances, but I never figured it'd be enough to ruin friendships between people and the different relationships everyone had towards eachother.  I never really realised that even before people left, our little "clique" had formed its on individual "cliques" in itself.

     It hurts knowing whats going on and not being able to come out and say why everything is happening the way it is. I HATE being cought in the middle of a situation with no way to help either side. It makes me feel weak. Even though I put on a front for all of them to see that I'm strong and I can be the one they can confide in. 

     Even I don't feel I belong to either "cliques" sometimes, that I have my own seperate little "clique" that I can be who I want to be with them, where I don't have to act as the "buffer zone" for anyone. 

     I know high school wasn't goin' to be easy, and that Jnr. yr. is the year I kind of find myself a little more, but the more I dicover myself, the more I realise that the people I've been trying to "protect"(in a way), are some people that I trully don't really know and seem to not really know me very well either. It feels as if some of the people that I want to call my friends, really are nothing more then mere acqaintances, though we spend time together hangin' out, we don't really know much about each other. But I do try to get to the know the person better, it just ends up ackward and strange.

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weee... update this shit! lol... hella long time! yeah yeah... so err'things been guud!! if i don't think about school! ahah... BC here i come! yeah... so last couple weeks been okay. Just been studying for finals! But finals didn't really matter cause it didn't really do shit to anything. so yeahs. Ap classes are aight, but failing. ahaha...weee... summer school! ^_^

OoO got me a formal date! ehehe... I asked him, well Angelica asked him for me cause she couldn't wait for me to ask him after 3rd period.  He thought it was a joke, but he said yes after she told him we were serious. ahaha... I was also mean to my formal date. ehehe... I didn't mean to insult him, but I made it up, I got him Dr.Pepper from the TEACHERS Lounge!  ^_^ plus chocolate and cookiies. yeah cause i'm cool like that. ahaha... now we just gots to figure out HOW we're going to formal and dinner and all that stuffs. We might get a limo but we'll see for now.

its Christmas! Got me some converse, babyblue bball shorts, and NorCal top. yupyup! Gets more later though cause that's not my actual presents. aahaha... I told my mommiie to get my present when we go to L.A. this weekend. Plus my own digi cam. cause she wants hers (the one i've been using for the past year) back. ehehe..and I'm pretty sure ima just get cash when i go down to L.A. so I think ima get me a Zune MP3 player or a new comp. ehehe...

this weekend in l.a. gots to look for my formal dress! yupyup... but idk where to go. gots to find places. ahaha... maybe go to Hunttington Beach. but yeahs. some fambam comin' in a while so ima bounce.

Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays